Back Again
Every now and then I get on this site, cause if I got on every day I’d run out of things to look at. lolz I like having quantity sometimes. But for awhile I think Ima be on. :)
Venting Once more
So I weighed myself last night and I’ve gained over 10 pounds! In like a month!!! T.T
It’s just so discouraging to me because I’ve been eating less and exercising more and it just feels like no matter what I do I can’t loose weight! I went from 263 lbs to 276 lbs!!!! WHY!?! HOW!?! I’ve been doing Zumba and walking a hell of a lot more and in a month and 3 weeks I’ve GAINED 13 lbs!!! How the hell is that possible!?! I just want to be skinny and healthy and it’s like no matter how hard I try I can’t loose the weight! I can’t even look in the mirror anymore without wanting to cry. Maybe this is just me feeling sorry for myself, but I can’t help it. It seems no matter how hard I try I can’t shed these pounds. I just wanna loose 100 lbs and instead of loosing I’m gaining. On what planet is that fair!?!
I’ve decided that starting tomorrow I’m going to record every single thing I eat and how much walking and crap I do. I’m so tired of not finding myself attractive and thinking I’m to ugly for someone to really like me except for creepy ugly old men who are like my dad’s age!!!
Speaking of my dad him, my sister, and my room mate all say they’ve noticed me loosing weight but how the hell is that possible!?! I’m almost 300 lbs and that makes me just want to curl up in a ball and cry and never eat again for the rest of my life. Like right now I’m actually hungry, but I don’t want to eat! It’s to discouraging. Of course I’m going to. I think I might cook some meat or something. I actually have a double chin now! I never had a double chin till I moved here to Texas. I guess everything really IS bigger in Texas. :(
Spoiled Brat Alert!
Just wanna go back to the days when I didn’t have to worry about anything other than who I was hanging out with. -.-” It’s not even fair how some people get to be babies their entire life while people like me are pretty much forced to grow up. Fucking pisses me off! How fucking hard is it to just pick up after yourself? “I DON’T KNOW HOW!” Bull fucking shit! I’m sick of mother fuckers telling me that. LEARN HOW BITCH! You’re in college now it’s time to learn how to take care of yourself. I’m not gonna wake your ass up to go to class on time I’m not gonna cook for you I’m sure as fuck not gonna continue to clean up after you. You can either learn how to do these things are get the fuck out of my dorm and go back to Longview and mooch off of that family you hate so fucking much. Seriously. Don’t even think this dumb ass realizes how fucked he would be if his family died. Stupid ass mother fucker. This is what’s on my mind lately and I just want this guy gone from my life. -.-” He just pisses me off w/ how incompetent he fucking is! I don’t have children for a reason though if I did they’d have more of a reason to be so dependent than this guy does. I can’t stand this shit much longer and I swear to God I am really close to just kicking him out and going back to my boring normal life w/ no drugs and no fucking James! I don’t feel like getting home from work and class only to have to fucking clean up after this guy AND on top of everything my room mate and him get along so well so I don’t feel like I have the right to kick him out when she enjoys his company so much. -.-” I don’t even know what to do at this point. Should I just ask him politely to leave?
Ok so I hardly ever Tumble my own items. But the other day a friend of mine came up to me the other day and offered me this “Energy Tea” stuff. I was like “Sure I’ll try it.” As it turns out stuff works damn good, no crash and burn, No added sugar, it’s basically tea. XD So I ordered a 12 pack for 30 dollars. Now it was $30.00 even for me, because I got connections and I didn’t even go online. So I don’t know the price online. It’s not much higher than that. Anyway got my shipment in last night which was 2 days earlier than planned so I was like “yay!” I got the peach flavor but they come in different flavors. I recommend looking it up! Monster, Redbull, nothing ever worked not even 5 hour energy shots, but real talk I tried this and I didn’t feel hyped I just felt more awake and alert. No crash and burn just go about your day as usual. I’ve got several friends hooked on this stuff for life. I know I sure am. (^_^) Check it out. It’s called “XS” like Excess but in letter form. :)
So this is the last post for tonight. HAD to comment on this. I watched the VMAs where Beyonce announced to the world she was pregnant at last. Can I just say congrats to her. I know she’s been trying for awhile. But while her personal life is the bomb at the moment I honestly wish she’d quit the music industry. Her songs are getting more and more desperate, and to me she’s just… Done. Someone stick a fork in her please. Woman is NOT Madonna and she really just needs to quit while the world can still tolerate her. Speaking as a person who’s best friend is obsessed with her. Just quit already Beyonce! Please!
She looks gorgeous in this video.
Yes Rihanna looks amazing, but she’d pull of a trash bag. I am not digging that costume. It’s to….. what’s the word? I’m just gonna say blah. Cause I love Rihanna and I don’t wanna be mean. But girl needa check back with her costume designer. That mesh/knitted area is what kills it for me.
Now these are TDF adorable! I mean tres vintage! Would I wear them? Hell yeah! Grant you I know those with simple tastes who are afraid to take risks might just admire the shoes and I almost contemplated saying no. But I rethought it and I would for sure wear these. Why? Cause they are different! Not different in a bad way either! Actual thought went into the design of this shoe and it is unique without being tacky. I’d go completely vintage wearing these though. Anything modern would look out of place with them.
I think I need a little Steve Madden in my life.
Don’t we all! God I just LOVE these cute little black heels! They are TDF. Also see how the actual sole of the shoe is lifted. Way more comfort than you’d think!
